My New Year’s Reflections (Or “Why Bald Mamas Rock”)
Happy New Year! I can’t believe it’s already 2008. It’s been about a year since I launched Moms Alive! and a little more than two years since my cancer diagnosis. I’m so grateful to be here.
The holidays have become a reflective time for me and my husband. All the seasonal celebrations take on a double meaning for us. On one hand, there is the usual excitement of this time of year: the joys of eating good food, sipping hot apple cider, and reveling in the company of good friends and family. On the other hand, because I was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin’s right before Christmas, all these little rituals also remind us of when we first stepped into this crazy cancer journey.
Two years ago on New Year’s Eve, we were celebrating a very different ritual. My husband, infant son, and good friends Elizabeth and Heidi had gathered for my head-shaving, which I felt fortunate to have been able to conduct on such an momentous day. We created a ceremony that reflected our understanding of my loss (of my beautiful long hair, of early motherhood as I had expected it to be, and of my preconceptions of myself as a healthy young woman) as well as my empowerment. You might think empowerment would be a strange thing to find during such a chaotic time, but even when our backs are up against the wall we have choices to make. For me, preemptively shaving my hair while I still had quite a bit left was liberating. I felt like I was taking action and making a choice to assume a warrior position—and look. Bald heads are fierce, after all, and they leave nothing to hide behind. More…
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